for proving that i still live

wow! it's been a while since i last updated this... i had been super hectic for a long time... as you can see... my last was sept 15 of last year... and now, as of the moment, it is the 27th of january 2005... well, i really don't know where to start but here it goes... since the last time i updated... as you all know... i had a wonderful time with my starfish (my gf) were are currently celebrating our 5th month on the 29 of january and still we enjoyed one's company... to be truly honest, i never felt such happiness for the longest time... since i broke up with my ex... im really happy that my current gf arrived in my life just in time... though we had fights left and right but still, we proved to ourselves that we love each other and will be sharing more joys and loves in the future... we are both struggling both in our studies and at the same time our other priorities like the chorale, family and especially - each other... i thank god for having her because she changed my life... i was uplifted, inspired and felt loved by my starfish. im also happy because last december i think, were already legal i mean were already boyfriend - girlfriend and im so happy about it. sometimes i believe and don't believe the fact the we're legal because basically, she is the only one gf that became legal to both parties... now... i just want to spend my remaining time on earth with her because i truly love her so much and at the same time i want to keep her for the lifetime... maybe god wants me to be happy... she just made my world upside-down... and im truly thankful to have her... ever since january 1, i began writing her letters and sometimes i feel sorry for myself because i delayed myself from writing due to some conflicts of my schedule but still i make up for it... and now it's january 27, i survived 27 days and 338 days to go... so i think it's kinda romantic writing your girlfriend letters everyday hehe... i know it's sounds cheesy or sweet but it's what i feel inside counts the most... i want to prove to her that i truly love her... and i hope she's reading this by then... in my last letter to her last tuesday, i told her that something will surprise her and this is the moment she'll never forget... i give her something very important to us... i hope she doesn't get the picture but yes... i want her to love me more... i want me to love her more... i guess these are my thoughts as of the moment... because im kinda sleepy and i have a 730 class tomorrow morning, i hope not to wake up late... caio...

yikee.. pacute si hunny  

cyee and raipee  

something deep inside just flies away...

whaa!!! im back... it's been a long and i mean long time since i lasted editted this journal... well anyway i have a lot of stories... well what's new about me nowadays... happy? yup!!! cuz i have a new girl friend... hehe... she's a second year in the university of asia and the pacific and i met her in the chorale... speaking of chorale... we've just finished our 2-day concert entitled "into the jungle"... one in phil am life manila last aug 29 (special day) - rais, you know this..., then the other one was last sept 3, at the li seng giap auditorium of the university of asia and the pacific... in phil am life... there were hundreds and i mean hundreds who watched us... i think more than 700+ people went there to watch us perform... there were a great line up of songs namely, minsan lang kitang iibigin, veniki, rubber duckie - was not sang in phil am because the rubber duckie was flushed down the toilet so we had the world premire of the rubber duckie in the li seng giap auditorium, don't say you love me, rosas pandan, paruparu bukid, the lion sleeps tonight - the ever famous mimimimimimi by vince, and a lot more... then what else, just celebrated my bday last sept 10 friday but i had the party the following day because i accompanied my hunny to watch the philippine harmonic orchestra in ccp, then we ate in the bay walk together with master arwin and ralph hoffman - the composer of dona reis requiem - mirriam hehe joke... then last saturday, sept 11, i had a party in my house... then that's it... im kinda busy nowadays... hehe...

it doesn't mean i'm incomplete...i'm useless

whew!!! for the first time in my life i felt something different... it's like being gone for a long time and returned from nowhere... monday... what did i do last monday... can't remember... hehe i think it's all the same... tuesday... finished my biolab and then went to my filipino class, class dicussions etc... christian civ... almost the same... oh i forgot i took my christian civ long test and i know i did my best... wednesday... what? i took another quiz in christian civ... i didn't study... hehe.... went to my nstp afterwards... still i got no tutee so i was assigned by my facilitator to get another tutee for a day...helped him in his assignment and walah... went back to ua&p for my chorale... played guitar with rais and julo... in the classroom... i played a song for rais... yihee... a song i made for a girl before... i let her hear it...:) thursday... got 3 classes only... bio... still the same... philippine society... just a new lesson dicussed and lan... a short review... then the rest... we practiced for our incorporation rite for friday... friday... i went early to ua&p because we have to sing in the dizon auditorium because it was ua&p's university day... so after singing me and the other members of the chorale ate at the caf and shared bonding moments... then me and matt went to our filipino class but to our surprised we have no filipino class!!! so matt accomanied me to the computer shop to check my mail and then went to back to ua&p for our incorporation rites... we sang again in the incoporation rites the we had our pictures taken... after that... i headed to my filipino meeting for our project... after that i went to my pictorials for our chorale's posters i think... then i headed to my chorale's practice till 9. sat... i woke up early to go to my nstp then... went to galle with matt to meet up with rais because it was sale... so i bought a shirt from penshoppe... then we headed back to ua&p for our chorale's practice... after that i headed to ateneo for my days with the lord meeting... i arrived superlate... practiced till 5 then headed back to galle because my brothers will treat my mom because it's my mom's birthday the next day... i went my mom back to galle then i bought 2 more pants from human... sale... after that we ate dinner with my mom, kuya nair, kuya chie, ate jaz and ate mac... after that... we watch "the village" kinda scary because im not fond of watching those kinds of movies then after the movie we headed home... sunday... it's my mom's birthday... we had mass at st. peter's church then ate lunch at home... then i slept again because i was super sleepy then i woke up... went to ever gotesco to get a hair cut then guess who i look like now... tobey maguire hehe... just the hair... i copied his hair from spider-man 2... then headed back home and ate mac arrived... then ate jaz... ate dinner then i went to do my rutines - shower..., open computer..., check e-mail..., then check my friendster..., then check my blog... and btw... tricia wrote me a testimonial for me... yihee hehe joke:D til next time...

i felt incomplete... there's something missing

a long long week for me again...mon... just the usual stuffs happened... having class and everything... tues... i finished answering my quiz in bio lab then me and kiko reported in filipino class... was great... wed... we had our make-up classes for christian civ... then we went to our nstp... bad thing was... our tutees are gown... they have classes... then i went to my chorale... then thurs... same old thing... but guess who i saw in greenhills?... it's chynna orteleza... she's so gorgeous!!! she wearing yellow shirt with her right strap is off on her shoulders...then me and my mom went to the hospital because of my aunt...she's suffering cancer in the stomach and it's already in stage 4 - the doctor said that she's lucky enough to reach xmas alive... fri... i went to my filipino class to dicuss our proj... christian civ was we're all copying notes... then i went to my chorale then we went to the hospital again to visit my aunt again... sat... i haven't review for my quiz in philippine society... damn!!! then i went to my nstp because me and me tutee needs to be monitored... gladly we got 25/25 in my grade... i thanked my tutee for giving me a 25/25 grade... then i went back to school to review my quiz in philsoc... i ate lunch first then i went reviewing... then the class started..i had my quiz!!! it was so hard!!! i went to mental blocking!!! then i answered my quiz in my best memory then there... after that me and my blockmates went to valle verde 5 because we will be playing basketball against block j - we won!!! 100-96... i felt great after making the last shot!!! my block is at 2-0 standing... then i went to greenhills... me and my mom had dinner then we went to the hospital again... as usual... after that we went home... checked on my e-mail and chatting with jean... then i watch 13 going on 30...it's funny and a great movie... while watching the movie... tina texted me... she's checking on me??? yeah!!! she's checking on me and for me it's very unusual for a girl to check me in the middle of the night... buy then i told her to sleep because she's already sleepy... i finished the film then i slept... sun... my family and i went to church then ate lunch... then i slept... then i woke up... then i checked my e-mail then going yo finish my papers...

dwtl family 

cy and cris 

cy and twinkle 

a long long week for me again...mon... just the usual stuffs happened... having class and everything... tues... i finished answering my quiz in bio lab then me and kiko reported in filipino class... was great... wed... we had our make-up classes for christian civ... then we went to our nstp... bad thing was... our tutees are gown... they have classes... then i went to my chorale... then thurs... same old thing... but guess who i saw in greenhills?... it's chynna orteleza... she's so gorgeous!!! she wearing yellow shirt with her right strap is off on her shoulders...then me and my mom went to the hospital because of my aunt...she's suffering cancer in the stomach and it's already in stage 4 - the doctor said that she's lucky enough to reach xmas alive... fri... i went to my filipino class to dicuss our proj... christian civ was we're all copying notes... then i went to my chorale then we went to the hospital again to visit my aunt again... sat... i haven't review for my quiz in philippine society... damn!!! then i went to my nstp because me and me tutee needs to be monitored... gladly we got 25/25 in my grade... i thanked my tutee for giving me a 25/25 grade... then i went back to school to review my quiz in philsoc... i ate lunch first then i went reviewing... then the class started..i had my quiz!!! it was so hard!!! i went to mental blocking!!! then i answered my quiz in my best memory then there... after that me and my blockmates went to valle verde 5 because we will be playing basketball against block j - we won!!! 100-96... i felt great after making the last shot!!! my block is at 2-0 standing... then i went to greenhills... me and my mom had dinner then we went to the hospital again... as usual... after that we went home... checked on my e-mail and chatting with jean... then i watch 13 going on 30...it's funny and a great movie... while watching the movie... tina texted me... she's checking on me??? yeah!!! she's checking on me and for me it's very unusual for a girl to check me in the middle of the night... buy then i told her to sleep because she's already sleepy... i finished the film then i slept... sun... my family and i went to church then ate lunch... then i slept... then i woke up... then i checked my e-mail then going yo finish my papers...

sometimes you need to sacrifice something before someone takes your breath away

another week passed by...and another stressful week coming by - take note it rhymes... monday...as i can remember, back to normal but our prof was super late and we had our bio in 30 minutes...then phil soc...i felt sleepy and sick but not in lunch...um...lan and i wrote an essay - how does god show his love to you - wow! good topic - thanks to days with the lord... i was able to site how and i sited some examples and you know blah blah blah blah...tues...biolab then whoa!!! we had a great time viewing cells... fil and christian civ...all the same...wed...oh i attended my nstp and i was excused early for my brief meeting for the cambodian day on friday i went to my chorale to practice for our concert and i enjoyed it..yahoo!!!thurs...i was happy to answer in my phil soc... but then it it's all the same...fri! cambodian day! i just attended my filipino class and half of my christian civ because i need to prepare for the arrival of the cambodian ambassador... i changed clothes... i was wearing dark navy blue long sleeves and then black sliky necktie then black slacks with black socks and shoes... and i enjoyed every part of the event... i even shook hands with the ambassador... not once, not twice, not thrice but four times... i even opened the door for him eveytime... and me and amir led the way... after the event we had dinner at our school's roof deck and guess what we ate?.... YELLOW CAB... that was the first time i ate yellow cab since i don't eat to that restaurant... sat... i went to my nstp then i taught my tutee as usual and then... my facilitator asked me if i can be monitored next sat... i said ok... after nstp...after loging out... my facilitator asked me of what was the course i chose... then i said... comarts then she said... um since i'm in the recuitment education... i'm thinking of recuiting you in education because you have POTENTIAL in teaching so i said... i'll have to think about it... then i fetched jean because we're going to the days with the lord meeting... then we chatted going to jolibee to get a cab... then we saw matt and ria trying to get a cab or i think jeep... she asked me if we can drop her in shang... i said yes... but the worse thing was... after we got a cab... we went greenhills because it was traffic going to shang... we dropped her in the mrt station because she's going to ayala... then we return to our chit-chats... upon arriving to ateneo... we saw them starting the meeting... but they're finishing already... they told us there will be a meeting after lunch so after the morning meeting... i talked to kuya third and i asked to introduce jean to the rest of the people... he gladly accepted and then one by one... i introduced them...starting to joshua, kuya xy... and the list goes on until kuya third... then we had lunch in kfc... we had a hard time picking a place to park... we circled around katipunan i think several times... then we a had a place to park... we went to kfc...ate lunch then return to ateneo... we had the meeting and jean was so happy about it...:D then after the meeting me and jean left ateneo to get a cab then there... she returned to ua&p because she has a practice in arnis - she is a varsity player in arnis in our school... i returned to pack up my things and saw barre and timo in the benches... barre went home then me and timo went to up because he needs something to drop by... then we xerox our songs in days and he treated me... he drived me home then i slept... i woke up dinner time... then ambo saw me watching tv on our music room... guess what i was watching - queer eye for the striaght guy... then he invited me to play basketball then i played for around 30 mins or so then i headed home... upon reaching my room... i went to the bathroom to get a shower...and the water was so cold!!! and then i used the computer after taking a bath...

learning to breath

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your risin' sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is a way, that I say I need You
This is a way
This is a way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
These abundant skies
Yeah, abundant skies, yeah

This is a way that I say I need You
This is a way that I say I love You
This is a way that I say I'm Yours
This is a way
This is a way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
(Leaning to breathe)
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
(Living again, awake and alive)
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
(I'm dyin')
Yes I'm dying to breathe in
(I'm dyin')
These abundant skies
These abundant skies, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm learning to breathe
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Hello, good morning, how you do?
How you do?
How you do?
Breathe

you - switchfoot - ost of a walk to remember

There's always something in the way
There's always something getting through
But it's not me
It's You
It's You

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in what I know
It's not in me
It's in You
It's in You

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

And I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me, Me,
In You
In You

I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me Me,
In You
In You

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

In You
In You
In You
In You

It's always something in the way
There's something getting through

It's not me

It's you
It's you
It's you
It's you
It's you
It's all i know
It's you
It's you
It's all i know

d' boys - all stars 

d' boys - block d all star cast 

another day, another blood to spill

well, another week has passed by and another stressful week will be coming...guess this will be the stressfullest week of my college life...but lets get down to monday...prof.david was kinda disappointed to our block because we thought that he would not come and we'll have our free cut but the worst thing is that he came...just late because of the acetate he would give to our class...tuesday, kit - our president made a letter of apoligies to our prof and gladly he accepted it...wednesday...i did't went to our nstp because of the hard and i mean hard rain...i even couldn't get a taxi going to "nayon ng kabataan" so i stayed in shangrila to kill time then i went straight to ua&p for my meeting on the cambodian day on the 30th of july...the ambassador of cambodia will be coming over to our beloved college to give a speech i think...i was voted as the assistant head of the event..amir was voted as our head in the activity next week...then i went to my chorale and my master "conductor" was happy to see me there...good thing i arrive early...thursday was a boring day...i got sick...but still i went to school...friday came...my block - "BLOCk D" had a game against block "i" and we beated them yahoo!!!48-68 is the score...i played well as well as carlo, anton, kiko, tommy and chino... then after the game...i went to the dentist then i went to school...after class i ate my supposed to be my early dinner in the caf because i didn't eat breakfast and lunch that day...i ate katsudon and 2 beef wanton rice meal...it filled my whole stomach full...so after my chorale...i accompanied my mom to her vendo to reload softdrinks etc...saturday..., i was late in my nstp because my mom arrived late because she went to nissan to tune up the car...after that...i was suppose to meet kit's friend in megamall...while waiting we went ice skating...whoa!!!ice skating?the last time i iced skate was way back in my first year...my best friend's birthday...-divina...um...guess what i bought?a sponge bob square pants slippers...so cute...and guess who saw me in ua&p awhile ago...my ex-gf's dad...